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    • I really liked Rental Family, which tracks with my enjoyment of this film subgenre: films set in Eastern Asia that involve circumstances in which families are constructed from nontraditional groupings – that includes Shoplifters and Broker
    • David Sedaris returns into my life again, originally having won me over with Dress Your Family in Courdoury in Denim back when I read that in high school, I think because of my friend Cecilia’s recommendation.

      In The Land and Its People, Sedaris has taken on something of an Andy Rooney quality as he ages. The writing is less about sardonic reflection and doesn’t delve into his own personal history as often. He’s often making himself out to be stodgy and ornery and even has a couple of diatribes about how he doesn’t understand the sensitivities of young queer people. Still, his voice reliably gets me through stressful drives and I’m grateful to him for accompanying me on a late-night drive back home from the stressful evils of Northern Virginia
    • To prepare for Fortune’s Weave, I played an inordinate amount of Three Houses, revisiting the game properly after several years to address the Silver Snow route. My first two playthroughs included my first and favorite, following the gallant Claude in the Verdant Wind route. After that, I got to know Dimitri a little too well in the Azure Moon route. But this time I opted to follow the Church route to the end.

      Anyway, it’s hard to go from one game to the other. Fortune’s Weave is a sequel, sure, and I have yet to see all the lore ties, but mechanically it’s practically three our four generations different. And the primary thing that gave me friction here was the two-hour set-up of cutscene followed by tutorial gameplay followed by cutscene. This is perhaps standard for gaming today, but given that I know how to get to the meat-and-potatoes of Three Houses within 15 minutes, it’s a bit much to swallow here.

      I think I’m in a fun part, though, and have hopes that I will at least see Leda’s story to the end.
  • Movies

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    Caught By the Tides (2025) | Jia Zhangke

    An experimental movie that I would have benefited from seeing in a theater with my full attention, Caught By the Tides pulls off that Boyhood conceit of having its actors age alongside the characters over a 20-year spread. The interesting angle here is that the archive and outtake footage from before 2022 weren’t shot with the intent of making a modern narrative film. Acclaimed director Jia Zhangke is assembling material from various projects, including footage from the production of recently lauded films Ash is the Purest White and Still Life.

    The result is intriguing to me, but just as with Boyhood, part of me feels uncouth in not appreciating the slow, methodical nature. I’ve been trained for decades to appreciate how movies can condense time, stitch it all in the screenplay and the editing room from footage over a period of months. Playing in the border between documentary and narrative needs the fictional part to be compelling and the temptation would be to manufacture the drama, but – this is to his credit – Zhangke wants an organic story that reflects a ponderous reality. As a result, I really have to be in a certain mood. Maybe I’ll find this again in a better space for it.

    Recently Watched

    FS pretty much watched Cars start to finish on a Sunday evening, which has he technically only ever done before with Flow.

    Cars was one of the famous early Pixars, along with Finding Nemo, that taught me I wouldn’t be universally enthralled by the oeuvre. This time around, I’m really grappling with the question of whether “saving Radiator Springs” is worth all the story.

    Still, it’s a better movie than Hoppers, which features a protagonist whose character flaws are all a result of internalized angst. At least Lightning McQueen is a genuine jerk, you know? Gives you something to dramatically change, as opposed to starting muddled and ending muddled.

  • Microposts

    October 6, 2026 11:12 am
    Reunion weekend is over and I’m glad I got to see the friends I did, but I will note that the …
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    I had a dream sequence about this upcoming 20th high school reunion that was both exciting and a lit …
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    September 4, 2026 10:56 am
    Tried to share my feelings at dinner last night. FS is off for a Labor Day break. We’ve made c …
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    August 31, 2026 9:56 am
    Yesterday was the birthday party for FS’s 3-year-old friend from his old daycare. A pool party …
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    August 21, 2026 9:32 am

    Gonna try to watch Teenage Sex and Death at Camp Miasma today.

    August 4, 2026 9:50 am
    Day one of solo parenting in the books. I went to Costco. I thought I could spend under $200. Ha. Ha …
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    July 10, 2026 6:32 pm
    Been trying to find a special gift for my upcoming anniversary and I did find what appears to be an …
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    July 8, 2026 1:50 am
    Hey Microposts. I left you alone for a little bit there, didn’t I? Uh, updates * Our dishwashe …
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  • New York Students Presented with Excerpts Read Fewer Novels, Go Figure

    New York Students Presented with Excerpts Read Fewer Novels, Go Figure

    Another week, another hand-wringing session about how children can’t read.

    New York Focus, as shared to me via Chalkbeat, interviewed several New York area teachers about children and reading and brought up two of the most conventionally feared boogeymen when it comes to child literacy. One of them I believe should be scrutinized and the other is overblown.

    NYF’s Melissa Manno frames the issue a lot through the lens of the New York state and city curriculums which prioritize getting kids to learn excerpts of full works and then, per my impression, relentlessly quiz them on it using stupid online tests.

    But they also brings up the spectre of social media and technology, a popular Jonathan Haidt style narrative when it comes to attention spans.

    The article does this point of comparison regarding the number of novels English classes work through these days. It opens with these examples: The Giver, Wonder, and Freak the Mighty. At one point, Manno quotes a high school teacher who can’t get through three novels with her juniors and seniors after teaching “five novels and a Shakespeare play” in the 1990s.

    But this kind of sounds like a self-degrading concept – the more teachers believe kids can’t get through five novels, the fewer novels they’ll bother with, especially when competing with must-read textbook excerpts for the standardized tests.

    My position on the “tech is ruining kid’s ability to read” is that we’ve been going through this song and dance for generations. Music television and Total Request Live were allegedly what high schoolers in my era were interested in rather than reading. The teachers assigned five-plus novels a year, but only a minority of us read them and even fewer of us understood them.

    I maintain that at the very least, kids on social networks have to exercise *some* reading and writing interaction in a way that kids just watching Carson Daly at home did not. Social networking apps and the dominance of short-form video are two of several problems, but our fallacy is thinking of past generations as completely literate, when in fact, Americans in particular usually learn how to fake reading comprehension.

  • An expert talks about the history of autocracy

    An expert talks about the history of autocracy

    This came on my desk through my Scientific American RSS feed. It’s an interview framed by Tim Vernimmen and it originally came from Knowable Magazine.

    Source: This Guy

    Gary Feinman, archaeologist and MacArthur Curator of Mesoamerican, Central American, and East Asian Anthropology at the Field Museum of Natural History in Chicago. He’s done a lot of research of civilizations in southeastern Mexico.

    Summary as I understand it

    We are being taught this popular narrative that the development of agriculture in humanity’s history was deterministic and that with the rise of farming came a lot of the inequality of our world. Essentially the idea that centralized and location-based human civilizations can’t be free in an anarchist sense.

    The interview introduction feints to the narrative that many people see agriculture as the source of autocracy. In this narrative, democracy as practiced by the Greeks was sort of an antidote and the model upon which organized and settled nation-states can resist autocracy, even when prominent successors like the Roman Empire fell to it regardless.

    Feinman says the archaeological record gives evidence for settled civilizations that were not autocratic by nature and instead had thriving bureaucracies that distributed sources more equally. He draws from findings in Mexico and China.

    (more…)

  • After Me Comes the Flood

    After Me Comes the Flood

    Regina Spektor – “Après Moi” – Begin to Hope (2006)

    Be afraid of the lame
    They’ll inherit your legs
    Be afraid of the old
    They’ll inherit your souls
    Be afraid of the cold
    They’ll inherit your blood
    Après moi, le déluge
    After me comes the flood

    The phrase “Après moi, le déluge” is supposedly something Louis XV said, interpreted to mean “I am rich and important and everybody else can drown once I’m gone for all I care.” But I’m sure some historian out there would tell me that I’m being uncharitable.

    Regina Spektor was introduced to me by my friend Alexis somehow in our first summer back from college (and she always had good taste in music). It was songs from this album, Begin to Hope, with my favorite “On the Radio.” She would pop up again here and there throughout my college music days. I eventually saw her in concert with Ben Folds at Wolf Trap on an early date with Erin.

    You’ll hear her use Russian fluently in the song above. She was born in the actual to goodness Soviet Union and grew up for nine years there but her parents brought her to New York when I was in diapers.

    I’m almost sure she’s said something problematic and I want to say it’s concerning Israel. I don’t know specifically what she’s said regarding Gaza in the past few years, but I’m hesitant to look it up because of how much I like her songs.

  • ‘Vacation,’ Day Three

    I’m wondering if there’s ever a point where you have your kids and you don’t feel like you need to keep one of your six senses on them at all times. Like, surely some parents just….let their kids exist, secure in the faith that their kids will persist in this reality.

    Sometimes I feel like a fairy tale goblin is just out of sight and looking for an opportunity to steal one of my children. Real Rumpelstiltskin shit. Real David Bowie from Labyrinth vibes.

    (My brain tried to protect me from the memory that his name is Jareth, but alas, here we are with another testament to my inability to do things like schedule a medical procedure, but a slightly damaged reference guide to pop culture).

    This anxiety I have about my kids getting into trouble or getting hurt. I share this with others, right? But before having kids I thought of them as the overly anxious ones. I thought of them as helicopters. I thought when it was my turn, I could just be.

    And when I test a sense of trust, they do things like draw on the couch or crawl up the stairs. The goblin is real. The goblin is everywhere. How do those mythical parents who just veg out and let their kids do whatever exist? I think they exist. Did I make them up entirely?


    We all saw it coming, of course. I have not remade my job searching strategy with the goal of getting out of this alienating employment situation. I have not built an amazing recipe book which will save me thousands of dollars and feed my family nutritiously; deliciously. I have not called my parents, sent a Discord chat to my brother, gotten in touch with old friends.

    I spent $300 at Costco and watched a Spider-Man movie.

    We all saw it coming.



  • Thing I’m Working On

    I walked into the cave, which was decorated in a friendly fashion. A nice quilt draped on the rocks with block lettering that read “I’m here to help.”

    For the past year, I’d been navigating this network of caves. I’d found the first spirit next to a pool of muddy water. I asked it for clay. It gave me slime. The slime was acceptable.

    Then, I found a cave with a goblin in it. The goblin was erratic. Constantly distracted and it peered leerily at me and beyond me as if trying to see what else I had to offer. I asked it for some books and it gave me some scrappy notebooks.

    Now I was in the third cave. And this spirit was large and gregarious. He was over-full. Frankly, his gluttony might have been mirroring mine.

    “Hello, Phil!” The spirit smiled.

    I looked down at my shoes.

    “I would like….a website,” I said.

  • YouTube Videos That Are Better Than the Platform Deserves

    June 2026

    Gregiffer runs the Pop Arena YouTube channel and the Nick Knacks documentary series, which breaks down classic Nickelodeon shows with true behind-the-scenes and history-of content. It’s pretty much tailor made for people who watched this content as 7-10 year olds in the 90’s. Impressive stuff.

    Pop Arena is on:
    Patreon, Ko-fi, Bluesky, Discord, Tumblr, and TVTropes

  • Therapy Check-In

    Therapist was six minutes late. Could’ve been worse, he’s ghosted before.

    I did a lot of talking. So I guess this is the kind of therapy it is, where I’m revealing things to myself and he’s kind of like a sounding board.

    We were talking about the tension between the career I have for money, which itself exists to support the liberal capitalist lifestyle I have set up for myself and my family and the activism work I do for very little money.

    And he did say one thing that helped me. “They say you should talk about your goals.”

    I reflected on the fact that I don’t love talking about my day, because even when it comes to simply putting a post out there on the Internet on behalf of a good organization, that’s not exciting. I bore myself at the thought of talking about that extensively.

    But something I could talk about would be the observation I’ve had – of the past activist organizations I’ve worked with, they’ve been heavily reliant on the corporate web as part of their social media strategies: LinkedIn, Twitter, Instagram – all these platforms actively working against the missions of the activist organizations.

    We’ve been monitoring this attempt to break away from the centralized, corporate internet and introduce the world to the decentralized, human internet. Wouldn’t it make sense to work toward platforms that specifically are for activists and people who want to use the Internet without providing DAU metrics for evil tech giants?

    This….this I’m interested in talking about.